In my Black Skin…

As the holiday approaches, I am decorating trees for the store packing ,sorting where I can getting ready to move when my lease is up, I do not know why I keep renting I could buy a house, call me cheap… I have started buying and stopped buying nine  times, I keep saying I do not want to set up roots anywhere permanent, but I do not want to be a transient either having to move because the Landlady does everything to not do anything…always talking a good game,  but never any action. this is a nice house so to speak 3 bedrooms, 2 full baths, 2 car garage across the street from a park and manmade lake.   People make me laugh when I see them fishing,  the fish they catch are not edible they are green…never knew green fish could look so nasty.

I love the quiet,  the neighbors are very nice Mr n Mrs G and their son,  E and her husband, a goat and 3 kids, yes goat,  he is the pet always eating my miniature roses on the fence.  I told E I wanted the goat and she said to eat him, I of course said no. (he only eats grass) .. But he is the best lawnmower. They have not had to cut grass in the yard all summer. He does make a lot of noise at night,  all night I think he sleeps mostly during the day…. but to keep the peace I do not say anything. E’s husband is a grouch all the time…I know if I hear him they hear him so at 3 am I get up get a cup of tea and start my day… Just me and the Lord, talking  the house is quiet and I have nothing but time…Time to do my thing… I like that, why rush people here are always in a hurry..I have had 3 car accidents since living here, No explanation necessary…

I have to go to Cedar Hill, Duncanville or Mesquite. if I really want to grocery shop there are a  few stores here but they smell so bad you wonder what they are selling, Beside the smell the people who work in these places do not speak a word of English they pretend they do not any-t-ways… when you tell them “Se habla espanol”, they start talking real fast… that’s so funny they think if they talk fast you will not understand what they are saying especially when they are calling you names,  I learned enough Spanish in Los Angeles and working at Parkland to understand every word… They use Nigger a lot, Black Nigger, No good Nigger, MF Nigger they tell their kids to call people names and make gestures like sticking up the middle finger…

It happens all the time, for a while when I moved here I thought it was because of me,  I am the only Black in the neighborhood. But that is not the case it happens at McDonald’s, Especially Wal-Mart, Walgreen’s, CVS, Car wash, 7-11, Subway, at Chase, Minyard’s everywhere… they do not believe in following the rules of  social ethic,  they have NO MANNERS they will reach right in front of you to get items from the shelf at a store forget the excuse me, may I get that… and look at you crazy if you say anything.  I was not trying to write a rant but it is what it is..http://youtu.be/aQMqWAiWPMs.. They would appreciate it if we all leave the US and go somewhere anywhere…just not be here I tried writing this as MZ Community N and V but the stupid system would not let me it’s not the system it’s me… I need a farm with 4-6 Rottweilers a moat and some alligators…